``Sunday, January 22, 2006``

no one to blame except myself

this service msg was great.. power of confession.. i heard this many types and i know tat as we speak, it will happen to us... but yet... i still have many negative thoughts tat are through in my mind... God, help me to think more positive... i know there are people around me who are trying to make me think more positively but yet when i face any problems, i will think of the worst situation instead of the better... izzit becos i am always keeping everything to myself and not sharing which causes me to think more and more negative each time when something happen?

anyway, juz nw after service, we went to eat at the food court.. then after tat 1 by 1 left... so in the end, left with yuhong, hong ming, lijuan, shi en and me.. then yuhong was sleeping... while lijuan and shi en was talking in another place... then hong ming and i were talking about something... then after a while... yuhong left for ministry le.. then hong ming suggest tat we might as well go for our training cos we also dunno wat to do... then let lijuan and shi en continue their talk... dun disturb them... so in the end... hong ming went for his TKD training then i actually wanted to go for chingay training de... while i was in the mrt, as usual when it is such a long trip.. my mind starts to think about things(cant say, dun wish to, dunno how to, dun wan to) then in the end... i headed home cos i dun think i am in the right mind to train anymore... life can be very simple but yet.. i am always the one who is making myself miserable... when can i grow up??

if i cant take the soft way to make myself not to think so much then i shall take the hard way but torturing myself physically until i dun have the energy to think at all... becos by then i will be physically exhausted...

-Finding back my cheerfulness-

][-Van-][ ``1/22/2006 05:44:00 PM``

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Name: VaNesSa taN
Bdae: 16/03/1987
Skool: ngee ann poly
CouRse: IT
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[..Wishing Well..]

  • GPA = 3.0
  • Personal Room
  • New Guitar
  • New Handphone -> N6280
  • Own Car?? Toyota
  • Bag -> clumpler bag
  • Clothes
  • Rippers Slippers
  • shoes
  • Mac laptop
  • go South Korea
  • get my driving license
  • guitar skills improve

    [..My Love..]

    shopping
    sleeping
    singing with friends
    cHat On MsN
    daydreaming
    gReEn CuShiON
    CHat oN pHonE
    LiSteNiNg tO MuSiC
    swiMminG
    friends
    family
    Usher Ministry 4S5
    Laos Team 06

    [..Memories of her..]

    November 2004
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    [..Self Motivation..]
    To succeed is to stay focus on 1 thing

    Never run away from a problem. Face it or it will haunt you

    Every Morning, when I wake up, I treasure the innocence of being able to enjoy each day.

    [..Teaching..]
    Hebrews 5:8
    though He was a Son, yet He learned obedience by the things which He suffered.

    Proverbs 15:1
    A soft answer turns away wrath, But a harsh word stirs up anger.

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    [..Movies watched..]

    * The Lake House - 4 Aug 06
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    * The Break Up - 24 Aug 06
    * Snakes on a plane - 28 Aug 06
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    * The Convenent - 09 Nov 06
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