``Wednesday, February 02, 2005``

*life is really Unpredictable*

this morning, at about 12 plus, my 3rd aunt called up and said tat my grandmother was not feeling weel so my dad and mum rushed down to send her to the hospital [NUH] as all the clinics are closed by then. My mum called about 1 hour later to tell me tat my grandmother was fine and she is okie.. i thought since she was okie so i went to sleep. Then went to beach road and bugis with some friends.. then went to the hospital to see her. As i saw her, my heart really aches as i saw so many needles are been attacted to her hands.. how i wish i was the one and not her to go through this since this age.. I have been controlling myself as i was so close to her and the previous day, she was still okie. Life is really unpredictable. I was really upset when i heard my parents telling my uncle tat this morning was worst, she could nt speak or open her eyes and yet they told me tat she was fine.She was vomitting all the time n feeling giggy. Results are out in the evening n she was suffering from a mild stroke. Although she could move her limbs and talk already but she wasnt feeling comfortable and has not eaten anything. After seeing her, i did not have the mood for anything. What i wan is just to sit there quietly. i know there are things for me to do n life have 2 carry on since she is okie but i just dont have the mood, once i finish wat i need to do, i will be sitting there alone quietly again. Anyway, i did not have my dinner too.. dun think i will be back to my usual self until she is discharged. Erm.. need to thanks Jack n Ting was calling and msging me to console me.. becos of them.. i did nt cry in front of anyone except when i was alone in the room...Nw my only wish is to see her get well soon and spent the new year with us..
Just feel like going somewhere to cry everything out.. whether the past or the present.. there are too many things happening.. arrgg... nw she is only ill n in the hospital and i am behaving this way.. i really dun know wat will i become when she leaves this world.......................LOVE HER LOTS!!

-Finding back my cheerfulness-

][-Van-][ ``2/02/2005 11:52:00 PM``

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