``Thursday, August 31, 2006``
simply miss jss teachers
last nite.. went to teacher's day dinner.. then we had fun with the teachers and saw many teachers new and old.. then Ms Ng Ching Ing is won one of the most caring teacher award.. hmm.. i can say tat i really saluate her... cos when i was her student.. i always wanted to give up chinese but she is always there to encourage.. and even teach me other subjects if she is able to.. a teacher who never fails to be there whenever you need her.. i remember she even meet us on sunday at mac to coach us on our chinese before our paper...cos there were lots of nagging but then to think of it.. without her nagging, i think my chinese will not do so well..
N level
Oral - Distinction
Overall - P2
O level
Oral - Distinction
Overall before retake - C5, after retake - B4
i have never even dreamt of such results cos for chinese, i am always a F9 student.. so to me, nothing lor.. but becos of her, i decided to put in lots of effort in chinese so that i will not disappoint her.. =)
today, went back to jss.. looking at the students, how we wish we are still this way, the fun we had as a class... then we went to HOD room to chat with teachers and looking at our sec 3 camp photos... so many happy memories that i had in jss are still fresh in my mind as though they just happened ytd.. i just miss all the teachers who had taught me.. or maybe i still miss their nagging la.. haha
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/31/2006 03:54:00 PM``
ATC 2006
finally, due to some hurting news that i received after i break camp on sunday, i simply went emotionally crazy la... so nw then i shall talk about me in ATC..
Day 1
Kah wee, me, aishah(BYSS), sandy(YCSS), yong ming(JYSS), Maz(YCSS), Sir Sean(YCSS), Mus.. we meet early in the morning at 10am at giant to buy all the logistics for the camp... then after that we took a cab down to changi jetty... then the cab was really very stuffy until we feel like vomitting plus it is very hot... then when we waited while the guys went to get food to bring to ubin cos we haven take breakfast and lunch ma..
at the jetty
in the bump boat
then the moment we reach ubin.. we started to draw all the logistics for instructors and cadets then we were checking wat is the total strength... it was only about 30 mins before the cadets reach the campsite then we managed to find some time to eat our lunch but still cant eat in peace.. when they are things not done... we will just leave our food and go and do the things first lor.. but first day ma.. so not too bad la.. then cadets reached le.. must make sure that all the girls have place to sleep and make sure they pitch their tents fast and everything... but of course, from tent-pitching.. i heard alot of complaint from jssnpcc le la.. but then at tat time, i can only talk to them for a while becos i have lots of things to do also.. then distribute the rations to the cadets... then bring them over to noordin for mock campfire.. at that time, finally have time to eat.. but then only eat a few mouth then we went to look after the cadets le.. then i was busy all the way until light off.. nw and then, people report as casualites.. so need to look after them... then talk to jssnpcc cadets becos maybe my expectations for my cadets are set too high and expect them to be the best?? dunno la.. haha.. then when it was time for instructors debrief... i cannot sit in peace cos people coming to me to report of injury here and injury there... wat to do? haha.. first aid lor.. you know wat.. i think i was so tired that i would stone for a while.. haha.. but then casulties are still my prioty.. so no matter how tired i am, i will still help them la.. then my sentry duty is at 3.30am so finally slept at 4.30am.. *so tired*
day 2
wake up at 5.30am cos gt PT.. then lijuan trying to contact me cos daffodil is admitted to the hospital... haix.. then my brain is tired but worried about cadets, about daffodil... then after tat, brought cadets out to find out some places... like mamam beach, chicken feet and bermuda triangle... then i took 2 groups out.. grp 4 and 7.. then grp 7 was my group ma.. so i have told them wat i wan and they are good as a group la.. then since i was taking them... so as we walked, i teached them songs and shows them places and tell them why it is called tat eg. Charlie 13.. haha.. then by the time, everything end, my leg.. is filled with blisters... but no choice lor.. then lucky my sentry was at 1.30am so managed to finish everything and slept at 3.30am.. *turn into zombie le*
some of the CIs before campfire
day 3
woke up again at 5.30am.. but then early in the morning.. took a quick 5mins breakfast then need to start doing things again.. then have to give lots of instructions but lost my voice due to lack of sleep so have to shout la.. then i kept scolding until other CIs asking if i took gun powder for breakfast.. haha.. hmm.. no la.. so decided not to talk la.. let them do the talking.. haha.. if not will become volcano eruption.. haha.. then after tat, make sure everything is done.. then i felt relieved.. but i still have my casulties.. so still continue to take care of them lor.. then HOME SWEET HOME..
hmm.. when we are back to our unit.. of course, i was happy la.. hee hee.. cracking stupid jokes with chin lim to entertain the casulties like 2 clowns.. haha.. actually, i am also quite happy when other CIs actually told me that jssnpcc sec 2 are really united when they saw the nite when all gathered to have dinner together and enjoying themselves and all having the same water bottles.. * some of the sec 2s are still guessing whether i passing out anot? * haha.. slowly guess la..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/31/2006 03:13:00 PM``
``Tuesday, August 29, 2006``
W221 GoNe bUt NoT fORGoTtEn
haix... although i seems to be so okie nw.. but then who knows what i am really feeling... i just wan to get back to my life as fast as i could... cos it is really not me if i am able to sit at 1 corner without talking the whole day... yup..
just nw, met up with kun for lunch.. then it is like talking about of stuff la... then i realised that i was going to be in Wuay Boon's cg with soo eng and fiona.. hmm.. okie la.. at least gt some members but dunno leh.. i still dun really feel................nvm.. wat i feel, dun need to bother also.. rite? as long as everyone stay happy can le.. my problem.. i should settle myself and stop adding to people problems and burden.. maybe shouldnt be too close to people... cos i realise everytime i am close to someone, the person will leave... so better stay at a distance then maybe the person will nt leave.. wat stupid logic.. but it is my logic for now la..
thought there are things in my mind... but i really alot from this cg.. and i really felt the love and care in the cg... if not i wouldnt have stay on in church le.. lots of memories... whether happy or sad... but the times and things that we did together will not be forgotten and of course the surprises that we get and gave are simply going to be memories for every single one of us... maybe i should learn how to accept such stuff and dun be too emotional.. or maybe i should just harden my heart then i can stay strong and not breaking down so easily... wateva it is, i just wan to thanks every single W221 members for all the memories that you have given to me..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/29/2006 05:35:00 PM``
i dunno what i wan.. i am just super lost
ARRGG... i am really going crazy le.. ytd, was my first and my last day of work... cos dun feel like working le.. so dun work lor..
then at nite, meet up with juan, kin sung and william(lijuan's cg member) to watch movie. Snakes on a Plane.. ya.. all the way, i wasnt talking la.. cos i dun feel like talking so sat quietly lor.. the show is interesting but it is like nothing to me.. no feeling, all i did was scare at the threatre screen... then let william and kin sung entertain lijuan lor.. then after tat, they wanted to go and eat... but then halfway, i feel tat i cannot take it le.. so i told lijuan i left first.. cos my eyes are really watery le.. i really dunno wat i wan la.. and i just feel tat inside is just volcano... things adding up and i will explode.. first that news, second this news.. so wat's next?? i driving myself crazy le leh..
then after tat, lijuan made me promise her tat i will reach home by 11.30pm but i dun wan.. then she say if i dun go home, she will not go home.. haix.. she is sick then somemore she needs so much rest.. in the end, no matter how stubborn i am to argue back and to rebel.. she still win.. so i reach home before 11.30pm lor.. but then i brain is in blankness.. thought coming home will be a good thing.. but the moment, i reach home, my mum started to nag on me again.. on this and that... at tat time, i just feel like taking my bag and leave the house cos i wan to be in the world of my own...
then i started drinking la.. to drown everything.. and to make me able to sleep if not another sleepless nite after my camp... then when i woke up this morning, my head really hurts.. i think hang over lor.. and i realise that i didnt off my lap top and i actually chat with so many people on msn last nite... but then i cannot remember anything at all.. cos even know wat did i talk to them about until i read the conversation cos i didnt close the window... haix..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/29/2006 08:16:00 AM``
``Monday, August 28, 2006``
thanks Lijuan & Kin Sung
just nw, i was packing my bag la.. after camp ma.. then kin sung called... but i rejected it.. then he called again... but i didnt answer so in the end, he ask me that lijuan has something to pass to me.. so i went down and saw lijuan also sitting there... with food and a pillow that she bought for me... haha.. maybe trying to cheer me up la... cos i dun wan to talk about the whole topic...
then she also bought mac and mos' soup for me... she scare i didnt take dinner ma.. haha.. i will take la.. if i remember.. anyway, thouh i was full le, but then i finish the soup in front of her la.. so not tat bad, actually she wanted me to eat the burger but then i really cannot eat anymore, too full already...
then we chat lor... hmm... thanks for everything la... okie, i think i am going to try to get some sleep cos tml morning, i need to go to work... i shall go and hug the pillow and try to get some sleep ba..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/28/2006 12:04:00 AM``
``Sunday, August 27, 2006``
no matter how much i dislike it... but truth hurts
just came back from ATC... hmm.. i am very tired but then there are so many things that is happening right now... even i am feeling tired but yet i am not sleepy... during ATC... too many things happened le la.. haha.. and i seemed to be the devil in ATC... so sad but no choice... haha
after we reach main land, then i called shi en cos meeting her to go party world... haha.. cos promise her le.. if not then she say that i cheat her feeling again.. haha.. so go lor... but then i didnt sing la.. cos i lost my voice le... so hourse.. then with w221 and w360... it is quite enjoyable singing la... then after party world, before we went into our separate ways, gerry wanted to talk to W221.. then she announced that our cg will be disband.. so we are going to other cg.. and i am going to W360.. so in the end, sophia dropped tears immediately... then shi en and i walked off.. cos we dun wan to say anything plus the both of us are nt going to be in the same cg.. haix... then desmond say that he wan to organise a farewell party or dinner... but i told him that i will not be going if he is going to organise.. then after tat, shi en, sophia and me were walking around orchard aimlessly.. haix.. then i decided to leave first la.. cos i just wan to be alone....
hmm... dun wan to continue to write le la.. tired le.. but thanks for all the memories that w221 has given to me... =)
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/27/2006 09:23:00 PM``
``Friday, August 25, 2006``
is ATC so scary??
haha.. okie.. let me explain ATC = Advantage Training Camp..
Every year.. all the sec 2 and 3s will have to go and for the sec 3s who go will get the ATC badge..
hmm.. i was reading my sec 2 cadets' blog and i realised everyone is so unwilling to go for ATC.. haha.. it seems as though they are going for war like tat... feeling stress about going ATC... dun feel like going ATC... scare of ATC... haha.. hmm.. izzit really tat scary or i am just used to it since it will be my 4th going for this camp le? haha.. dunno la.. anyway, if you all happen to see this post before you all left for ATC, dun worry la.. we, instructors will not eat you all up de... just go there to enjoy and make new friends from other schools... 3 days is going to pass very fast.. =)
Jia you for the ATC.. and hope you all will enjoy yourself la...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/25/2006 12:55:00 AM``
About Guys
hmm.. tml i will be going for camp le.. so not around for the next 3 days... hmm.. actually i just nw thought of going booking out early to go service on sunday but then i dun have transport from ubin to changi jetty so early in the morning so i think i will just take that idea off my mind ba..
i am feeling exhausted la... so hopefully by going for this camp, it is going to give me full energy once again.. cos there are too many decisions to make le la.. until i am feeling tired of myself and i think people are also feeling tired about me le... anyway, i just feel tat when you wan to make decisions.. decisions are made for you... when you dun wan to make decisions... decisions are left there for you to make... *** TIME TO LEARN, THINK TO BACK EVERYTHING RIGHT BACK... I have my camp, Laos bonding camp, Laos trip to think through everything and get myself back to the REALITY!!*** But if i cant then .........................................................
my friend send me this.. but anyway... it is up to you to feel whether you find it true... haha.. read it for yourself.. =)
Girls, what do you say ?
Men Are Hard To Please
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The problems with GUYS:
If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;
If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u Don't , he says u are from VILLAGE.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN ;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him! , he will try to LEAVE u.
If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;
If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him; (haha.. seems familiar)
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!
& sooo hard to please!!!!!
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/25/2006 12:18:00 AM``
``Tuesday, August 22, 2006``
i cant really study... i am still thinking whether i should go for the prayer meeting anot... that why wateva i read doesnt get into my head nw... arrgg...
"Seek the kingdom of God first"...
I was glad that i went for Friday's nite's service.. thought at first, i had some thoughts.. but nvm, the things that i thought of didnt happen.. so it is okie... anyway, i really enjoyed pastor A.R.Barnard's service... that i invited my parents to come to church... but actually inside, there is a fear... cos all along they doesnt like the church, the way we do things... but i am having faith in God that He is open their hearts... and on sunday, they came to church... cool!! hee hee.. At first, i was really scare that my parents will not be happy with the way we worship and everything but then God told me that just enjoy His word and my parents are going to enjoy the word too...
at the end of the service, my parents had to leave first cos they are going to fetch my sis from her tuition.. but then they turned back and ask me to go and get his book and make sure i get it sign... and they paid for it... wow!!
then ytd, when my dad drove me home, he told me that both my mum and dad had enjoyed the service and have learned something out of pastor's preaching... he say that after going to the church to see for himself, he realised that pastor Kong wasnt wat he had heard about him... now, at least my parents are not against the church anymore.. but still there are some problems... haha.. wat is it?? guess lor =p and you know wat?? my mum is reading the book nw and she is also reading the book that i gave her...
Father, i thank you for all the things you have done... I prayed that their hearts will be so open towards you and come back to you one day. And I pray for all the people around me to be happy and healthy. Amen
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/22/2006 05:13:00 PM``
``Saturday, August 19, 2006``
totally stupid!! i cant keep my promise!!
just nw, went for service... then i msg my dad to pick me up from expo cos it is going to end very late plus, i might miss my last bus... so i also told him to send jasmine, seng chong and lijuan home.. then he say okie.. so i took them le.. then after service, i see the msg, he say mummy and my sis also coming along... stupid rite??? fetch me 1 person need the whole family to come ar?? then they say they msg me le ma.. WHO ON EARTH WILL READ THE STUPID MSG DURING SERVICE??? really cannot take it la... didnt talk to them throughout the whole journey.. was talking to seng chong and jasmine...
tell them le... then if cannot can at least tell me straight away, msg me and call me during service... as though i know like tat... cannot keep your promise that dun promise me in the first place la... i feel tat i better go and get my car license real fast... if not i think i going to have heart attack real soon if this is going to carry on... i felt really hopeless la..
haix.. dun want to say le la.. i better go and pray before i think i am going to burst soon and ended up arguing with them again... but sorry, i did something wrong at foyer 3 again just now... not on purpose la.. but so happen... do le then i realise... haix.. anyway, i better go and study to complete the 7 hours that i promised someone that i will complete it no matter wat...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/19/2006 12:15:00 AM``
``Thursday, August 17, 2006``
i lost my taste bud???
haha.. dun be shocked when you see my title la.. cos i am still having flu so whatever i eat seems so not right.. haha.. i think becos of this, i dun really eat alot lor... haha..
this morning, actually wanted to sleep until afternoon de.. but then in the morning lijuan called me.. then her voice like hmm... dunno how to describe la.. but maybe spirits talk la.. haha.. so i was lying on my bed thinking how to brighten up her day... actually, i very scare to cook cos i cant really taste the food so watever i cook is going to be by faith.. haha.. anyway, i decided to do it.. so went to jp, go and get all the things that i needed... then came home... doing all the cutting and starting boiling the water.... then after tat, i put everything in to boil... while i go and take my notes and sat in front of the fire to watch the soup... haha.. hey, but healthy lor... didnt add oil, sugar or salt or anything de.. haha.. cos i am a very soup person so to me, i am very particular about cooking of my own soup... haha.. then sat there until i wan to fall asleep le... haha.. then after tat, when soup is ready, then packed it.. while i pour a bowl for my mum to try my cooking.. haha.. then i stand there to hestitate for a while, to think should i give it to lijuan a not.. cos dunno if it is drinkable.. haha.. anyway, i went down to her workplace... again, she knew i was going... dun ask me how?? cos i dunno also.. haha..
then pass to her then i left le... but she msg me that the soup base is sweet... wow!! thanks god that it is drinkable la.. at least the soup can brighten up her day... haha.. then i went down to ah ma's place.. cos going there for dinner ma... then about 7 plus... my mum called me... she told me that she tried the soup... it is very nice... then she asked me... why i kept so little soup for her... haha.. hmm... okie....
hmm... i think this blog is a place that i will take down the little things tat happened in my life or i have done.. but normally, the big problem.. will not be here la.. haha... will be in my mind and heart... haha.. =p
okie la.. need to go and study le.. jia you!! God Bless You! =)
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/17/2006 10:17:00 PM``
``Wednesday, August 16, 2006``
exam coming.. stress ar!!
hmm.. ytd... went to sch in the morning.. then after tat... went down to lijuan's place... firstly, she is sick la... so went to meet her and help her buy lunch from ngee ann... then went to buy some christian books.. hehe... reading always brighten up my days... then after tat went to lijuan's place to study.. haha.. she sleeps while i study... hmm...
then study until her mum brought Daffodil home... then dun need to study le.. cos she is crawling around... haha.. then after tat, we went down to mac to talk lor..
today, went down to suntec tower 3's coffee bean to study with shelin... haha.. then saw pastors and a few church staff... then after a while, we started talking.. haha.. a bit no mood to study la.. then after tat, lijuan called up so went down to tampines to meet her and accompany her for dinner lor.. then my dad came to pick me up to go back ah ma's house for dinner...
help help help!!! i dun have the mood to study... arrgg.. exams is only 4 days away... and i am still in my lala land.. how???
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/16/2006 11:08:00 PM``
``Sunday, August 13, 2006``
CG outing today
hmm... today, is friendship connection... then our cg gt outreach ma.. so i told Berlinda tat i could not serve for recycling cos of our zone thing that our cg going for outing... after so long, finally, i have the time to go and fellowship with the cg cos normally, i will be at ministry until by the time i left my ministry, my cg also went for their own things le.. haha..
so we went to tampines to eat then actually wanted to watch movie there de.. then in the end didnt cos the timing not right... so we went to jp to watch.. haha.. cool.. so near to our place... then we went to watch the show "click".. hmm.. actually, i watch le la.. but then since most of my cg members wanted to watch the show so i decided to watch with them lor as a form of fellowshipping also ma rite? haha.. then then after the show, we went to mac to teach huizhen A maths.. hmm.. hope she enjoyed the show and our company.. haha..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/13/2006 10:28:00 PM``
``Friday, August 11, 2006``
so fan!!
haix.. i really dunno wat to do... this morning, went down to queenstown with kah wee to get the NCO t-shirt then settle all all the things... then after tat, went down to unit for training... then Ms Lim wanted to talk to Chuan Heng, Kah Wee and me... then she wanted kw and me to reconsider to continue our service... haix.. i really dunno what to do..
then after training, clara, jolene, tivona, eunice came to look for me... then they also trying to ask me not to end my service... haha.. continue to be a WCI... haix... but then i dunno... should i consider to stay or i should keep my stand and step down... the most, i can always come back to visit them if i miss them de...
i am been thinking about it lor.. but still dunno whether i should stay anot... but there are so many factors to consider... haix... God, guide me the way that you wan me to go... i really dunno which route i should take...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/11/2006 09:51:00 PM``
Daffodil is getting cuter and sweeter
today, went out for dinner with lijuan, kin sung and Daffodil.... actually, at first when at lijuan's place, she dun allow me to carry then when i carry her, she started crying... hmm.. she starts to recognise people le..
then went we are at the food court.. becos need to carry her... so lijuan cannot eat her dinner.. so i finish my dinner fast then i took over then i carried her and play with her.. then i brought her around cold storage... hmm.. i realised that she is getting more talkative le... haha.. and she is getting smarter... when you tell her to hi- 5, she will hi-5 with you.. then she also know how to clap her hands when you say "clap clap".. .haha.. so cute rite? then after tat, went to seiyu... then i was carrying her all the way cos lijuan dun wan to carry her... so i play with her lor... then after tat, when we about to go home, she wanted lijuan to carry then she wanted me to carry... playing the both of us la... then when lijuan tried to ask daffodil to let kin sung carry, she dun wan... then instead she wanted me to carry her... haha.. so i carried her and talk to her on the way lor... cos she is very tired le.. then half-way, she fell asleep... so sweet lor.. if you see her today... i should take another video of her the next time i see her.. haha
hmmm.... lijuan said that i am a good PA.. she will consider hiring me next time.. haha.. cannot la.. i not studying early childhood leh.. i am studying IT de.. haha... okie la.. nw, the time is 2.54am.. and i think it is time for me to go and sleep after doing all the things i need to do tonite.. yeah!! bed, here i comes!! =)
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/11/2006 02:49:00 AM``
``Wednesday, August 09, 2006``
National Day 2006
okie.. today, i spend half of my day at home rotting.. then went to meet lijuan in the evening..
hmm.. 3 years ago on this very day, i had a wonderful day.. and made lots of friends... NDP 2003 ROX!!
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/09/2006 11:48:00 PM``
fireworks at marina bay
ytd.. went to watch fireworks at marina bay.. with Kah Wee, Chin Lim, Jun Wen, Joyce, Karul, Desmond, Hui Ting and Adrian... hmm.. actually didnt wanted to go de... but then my 2 dears - ting and joyce going ma.. then i didnt go with them for the past 2 years le.. so didnt want to disappoint them.. so went lor... then i was really coughing like crazy la.. go there somemore gt suan by kah wee and joyce.. then after ting add on... hai yo..
then after tat, sat at the staircase to eat cos we bought some food le.. so eat liao.. then i went home first... cos i wasnt really feeling good la.. then i wan to go home and rest so left first...
anyway, it is enjoyable day for all of us.. even though the fireworks last nite wasnt really very nice.. haha.. okie.. better get some rest first.. cos later going out again.. haha..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/09/2006 01:19:00 PM``
``Tuesday, August 08, 2006``
2 movies in a day
today, i feel tat i go to sch also no use... reach class less than 1 hour, then i fell asleep le.. but half asleep la.. cos msging yuhong and lijuan then after tat, when stopped msging.. i really slept cos i was really very tired la.. plus i think cos i am not feeling good.. so in the end, i slept at about 10plus to 11.55am when lijuan called me.. haha.. and my lesson ends at 12pm lor.. power rite? then i rush down to yuhong's place to collect the strawberries that we wanted to send to shi en's workplace to give her a surprise de... haha.. then went to meet jac, kenedict, shelin for pizza hut lunch before we went to catch the movie "Dragon Tiger Gate" hmm.. it is a very nice show la.. and jac actually went crazy, when they won the fight, she started to clap her hands then shelin and i went blur.. haha
then after tat, they went home le.. then i went to long john silver to wait for lijuan and kin sung cos we are going to watch CLICK... it is quite funny la.. but also very sad when it is about to end... the things tat people always tend to forget but only regret after it actually happens... hmm.. i can say should go and watch this movie la.. it makes you realise that there are more important things then just working for money... just nw, scary lor... i think i really made lijuan angry la... then she didnt wan to talk to me.. hmm.. actually, thought of leaving the place...but then i cant.. if not i think i will make the situation worse lor...why i made her angry?? becos i deleted the msg that my friend sent me.. and she wanted to see the msg la.. hmm.. anyway, after tat okie le.. since she already hit me so many times le.. haha.. then after the movie.. we went to TCC to eat and drink again... then sit there until about 11pm then we left...
hmm.. dunno why, i just dun feel like eating at all lor... dun feel hungry and i am always feeling full.. die le la.. i think i have big problem with me.. anyway, have to go and sleep early le.. if not tml should sleep in class de.. haha.. good nite..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/08/2006 01:29:00 AM``
``Monday, August 07, 2006``
felt burden
hmm.. dunno why, i kind of felt burden.. it seems like there is something tat is missing or i have not done.. or i have done something wrongly.. just feel tat the feeling is very funny... hmm.. or maybe it has to do with my decision... i really dunno...
actually, i feel tat there are alot of things in my heart that i am worried about... but i cant list them out here... of course, i know that there are somethings in my heart which has not been settled... and i am just running away from it... but sometimes, i feel tat it is not a matter of choice but it is more of which is the better way to do it... hmm... maybe, i just think too much cos i am sick nw so my mind and everything is in a mess...
haix.. forget it la.. dun think about it le.. the more i think, the most i am getting more burden... i know what i wan and why... but somethings can never be the same again afterall... okie... better go and sleep le.. tml 9am lesson...
Father, i pray that you come heal me. I wan to recover from my flu fast, you are our healer, Lord. I thank you in advance. Father, i prayed that you will heal lijuan's cough, she has been coughing for weeks, Lord, i pray that you will come upon her and heal her right now. I thank you all in Jesus name, Amen.
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/07/2006 12:42:00 AM``
``Sunday, August 06, 2006``
NDP 2006
Hmm.. ytd was my big day.. i was the parade 2IC for Taman Jurong Combined National Day Parade 2006.. it was always my dream to wear 1st U since the day i joined NPCC and my dream was fulfilled.. thank you, my heavenly father in heaven...
actually, i was really very nervous and scare cos during the rehearsal, i made mistake but everything went smoothly, and many people said i did well.. wow!! this is like a dream come true.. hee hee.. this is going to be part of my memories for the rest of my life in NPCC serving years.. and my parents and grandparents are really proud of me when they saw me marching in and the whole parade.. =)
me in my 1st U with my sword..
me & alvin
me & my sis
GOH with the commanders.. all smiling
GOH with commanders, all looking smart and serious..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/06/2006 11:59:00 PM``
``Friday, August 04, 2006``
The Lake House
Genre: Drama, Romance
Main Cast: Sandra Bullock, Keanu Reeves, Christopher Plummer
Release Date: 27 July 2006
Running Time: 100 minutes
It is a very nice show.. hmm.. the main male actor was very sweet to the gal even if he have not really seen her before... and the lake house is very nice.. hmm.. imagine staying by the lake, seems not a bad idea rite? Although it is abit ma fan.. but then i think it will be a peaceful place where no one is come and disturb you.. and everyday, you are facing the nature... and the lake...
in the morning, lijuan say she wanted to watch Lake House so she booked ticket le lor.. so i meet soo eng gt we need to go and get something.. then after tat need to meet Yuhong cos getting another friend's present.. then need to meet lijuan.. but lijuan only bought 3 tickets cos May called lijuan then she also bought May's ticket then May's friend came also... cos the ticket was given to Yuhong then May and her friend go and buy ticket lor.. haha.. then after tat, may, her friend, yuhong and me went to eat supper.. haha.. then lijuan go and meet her friend..
then yuhong say his zodiac is pig.. then lijuan's zodiac is dog so end up, i am their "zhu peng kou you".. haix.. like tat also can... nothing to say le..
everything in the show seems so nice... but will it happen in the actual world? nvm, think about it.. anyway, try to watch this show if you can.. it is great.. btw, i just feel tat Keanu Reeves is not a bad looking guy la.. haha..
- song wanted: I Wish You Love - (though not sure if title is correct but it is a great song and when i hear it.. i kind of love it.. maybe becos ir is sementimal)
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/04/2006 12:57:00 AM``
``Wednesday, August 02, 2006``
surprise
hmm.. today, only have 2 hours of lesson.. but when i woke up this morning, i wasnt feeling good but still have to go to sch.. then my throat and eyes very dry.. normally when this happen, it means that i am either going to have fever or a sore throat.. then still going for steamboat with lijuan and kin sung at nite..
then during the day, i was complaining to lijuan that my eyes very dry.. haha.. but it was very uncomfortable la.. and going to have sore throat le still ask me go and eat ma la huo guo.. then my voice gone le then how to shout command on sat during parade.. haha..
then in the evening.. went to meet them.. lijuan told kin sung tat i was going to fall sick le.. so he bought me a bottle of so called cooling tea la.. haha.. okie.. then when i went home, i was packing my bag.. then i saw this box.. so i opened it and saw vicks and eye drops inside.. haha.. a surprise from her.. haha.. really thanks.. but i find myself very stupid la.. cos i open my bag so many times but still didnt see the box until i reach home.. haha.. anyway, i promise juan that i will take photo of it and post it in my blog.. the surprise that she gave me.. haha..
see.. some more put in such a nice box.. haha.. really apprecitate it.. able to do it even when she still have to work.. haha.. dun get jealous hor... haha.. okie la.. better go and drink more water.. then need to go and sleep le..
wish me luck for tml's E-Business Foundation final paper ba.. =)
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``8/02/2006 12:44:00 AM``
