``Friday, July 14, 2006``

i cant help it but the flame is starting to light up

well, today, i thought i should go for training in npcc.. since it has been ages since i went for training as i actually told myself not to go back... cos i need to choose my priority rite.. but then dunno why... i just feel like going back today...

NPCC PLEDGE
"We the members of the NPCC, do here and now solemnly and sincerely pledge that:
We will always bear true faith and allegiance to the President and our Republic of Singapore.
We will always be loyal and true to our country, our people and the government.
We will always be prepared to serve our country and community.
We will always preserve the peace and uphold the law."

hmm... when i wore my uniform once again... i felt home... for the last 2 weeks when i felt lost and losing my sense of direction and belonging but today, i really felt as though i have come home to where i belong... sorry, that i broke my promise time after time that i will leave but then when sometimes happen in your life... i rather go to somewhere that at least i felt needed and belong to... though we are internal conflicts but then people are so true... the laughter we had today... really very happy today cos i haven really smile and laugh for a while le... although, there were times when cadets are very rude so we have to punish them and scold them but come to think of it... it is also how each one of us has grown up to become a person who has leadership and discipline...

sorry to my sec 2s cadets.. today, i know that i am very harsh on you all.. and yes, i can be friendly on the outside but i think some of you saw the different side of me when i am in uniform.. i know that there are some of your squadmates are in GOH.. but nevertheless.. continue to strive in NPCC and i am sure one day, you will be in there... Dont Give Up!!

actually, i kind of felt a bit bad la.. cos today my sec 1s were scolded by me until very badly leh.. until like they about to cry le.. so dun mess with me when i am in uniform... dun try to play tricks on me.. i can be nice, friendly and good to you all but if you all are going show me attitudes then so be it.. pls remember your ABCDE.. npcc is a team not a 1 man show!!

anyway, i will be the Parade2IC for Taman Jurong NDP 2006 which means that i will be wearing first uniform... yes, to many of you could think tat this is nothing... but then to me, it is just something which means alot to me... i really thank God for this chance that is given to me at this time...

ok.. after this NDP 2006, i think i will really announce that i will step down... ai ya.. dunno la.. although saying that i am stepping down is going to let me feel losing the sense of belonging but still have to leave cos i have made this decision to my Father in Heaven so i need to keep it.

-Finding back my cheerfulness-

][-Van-][ ``7/14/2006 10:37:00 PM``

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Name: VaNesSa taN
Bdae: 16/03/1987
Skool: ngee ann poly
CouRse: IT
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[..Wishing Well..]

  • GPA = 3.0
  • Personal Room
  • New Guitar
  • New Handphone -> N6280
  • Own Car?? Toyota
  • Bag -> clumpler bag
  • Clothes
  • Rippers Slippers
  • shoes
  • Mac laptop
  • go South Korea
  • get my driving license
  • guitar skills improve

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    shopping
    sleeping
    singing with friends
    cHat On MsN
    daydreaming
    gReEn CuShiON
    CHat oN pHonE
    LiSteNiNg tO MuSiC
    swiMminG
    friends
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    Usher Ministry 4S5
    Laos Team 06

    [..Memories of her..]

    November 2004
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    Never run away from a problem. Face it or it will haunt you

    Every Morning, when I wake up, I treasure the innocence of being able to enjoy each day.

    [..Teaching..]
    Hebrews 5:8
    though He was a Son, yet He learned obedience by the things which He suffered.

    Proverbs 15:1
    A soft answer turns away wrath, But a harsh word stirs up anger.

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    * The Lake House - 4 Aug 06
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    * Snakes on a plane - 28 Aug 06
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