``Tuesday, July 11, 2006``

getting back to my life

hmm.. as many people who has been hanging around with me will know that for the past 2 weeks, i am extremely not human.. i can go without food for days without feeling hungry and i can go without sleep for days without feeling tired... all i do is to sit there to stone... that is how i spend my days.. and even in class, the noisy me has disappear so much as tat my friends actually thought i wasnt in class at all.. haha.. but lucky that i am getting back or i can be a zombie le... can dun sleep and dun eat... haha.. had a real good sleep ytd... after coming back from the World Cup match... and last nite.. i managed to sleep peacefully although in the end, i woke up very early this morning even though i dun need to go to sch so early...

i have been trying to get back to myself... i know tat this will not be an easy job but nevertheless, there isnt anyone able to help me... cos i know myself that when i am feeling down, it makes it harder for people to get into my life... and i will shut off even more... unless you are one of those tat i cant hide from you but to say wat happen in my life... though, i am getting back to myself but somethings seem to be worse than before... i know you all are trying to help me... but not everything is under your control... knowing that you will lose the battle and hurt more people... then why still fight back... just step back and everything will be fine...

i feel tat sometimes, to fight for wat we wan is easy when everything is going your way, but sometimes, you just get too tired to carry on fighting for it even though you know wat you wan cos everytime you are going to fight something, you need the strength and the energy and of course the trust from parents... but it isnt going to be easy... they seems to be real serious this time.. so at the moment... i think i will let the matter rest lor... cos i also tired... for nw, i only wan to concentrate on my studies... the rest might have to wait till i gain my energy back.. i am exhausted le...

but 1 thing i will wan to thank God for my classmates & some chc friends.. my classmates have always been there for me, try to brighten up for days.. help me to make sure that i dont make mistake in the assignment i did... help me to copy notes when i sat there to stone... they have really showed me lots of care and concern... it makes my day seems better in sch so that i dun need to think... you guy ROX!! there are some people who knows what actually happened... father, thank you for placing them in my life to talk senses to me... although some of them know that no matter wat is told to me will not get into my head but yet they still tell me... haha.. sometimes, i really wonder how did people have so much patience with me? as i am a really very stubborn person... haha..

-Finding back my cheerfulness-

][-Van-][ ``7/11/2006 09:57:00 PM``

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Name: VaNesSa taN
Bdae: 16/03/1987
Skool: ngee ann poly
CouRse: IT
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  • GPA = 3.0
  • Personal Room
  • New Guitar
  • New Handphone -> N6280
  • Own Car?? Toyota
  • Bag -> clumpler bag
  • Clothes
  • Rippers Slippers
  • shoes
  • Mac laptop
  • go South Korea
  • get my driving license
  • guitar skills improve

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    shopping
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    singing with friends
    cHat On MsN
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    gReEn CuShiON
    CHat oN pHonE
    LiSteNiNg tO MuSiC
    swiMminG
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    Usher Ministry 4S5
    Laos Team 06

    [..Memories of her..]

    November 2004
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    Hebrews 5:8
    though He was a Son, yet He learned obedience by the things which He suffered.

    Proverbs 15:1
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    * Snakes on a plane - 28 Aug 06
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