``Thursday, December 22, 2005``

it's time to grow up

a.. this will be my first entry tat it will be quite long i tink.. and definitely be the entry tat i will type out everything on how i feel for the first time.. [ take it as my reflection post.. okie =) ]

today... started by day by going for npcc training... wat i can say is that my squad is no longer the one i used to know.. as maybe after being NCOs, they have changed... i also dunno... i really hope tat they will change...

then i went home to bath then went down to my grandma's place... cos todae eating tang yuan so all muz go there.. after tat.. i went down to city hall to meet lijuan.. to pass her the tang yuan that i promise her and accompany her to her ex-work place to collect something.. then we went to mac to eat.. after tat then i came home le.. cos i need to be home by 10.30pm

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today.. someone has talked alot of senses into my head.. after wat this person has told me.. it really let me think alot on my actions for the past 18 years...

pt 1: i realise tat at times.. i am really going overboard to certain things tat i may have said or did something to hurt the person or not respecting the person who i am talking to... i apologise to all those people around me whom i may have said some hurting words to you... and not giving you the basic respect that i should give to you...

pt 2: i have to realise when it is the time to play and when it is the time to be serious.. as a CI.. i know this logic very clearly but sometimes... i tend to forget to use it in my daily life... again.. i will want to apologise to people around me whom i have added salt and pepper when someone is pushing you to the deep end... i should have stopped them knowing tat it isnt right and nt thinking tat it is fun so i should step in too... i should have thought of the party's feeling...

pt 3: there are many things... knowing tat it is wrong to do it.. but then when someone did it.. i didnt stop them... cos i was afraid... but today.. i learnt that there are many things tat we should let the person know tat it isnt right to do it and nt letting the whole matter past this way.. the person will nt learnt but yet maybe doing it for the second time..

pt 4: close friends around me... i know tat there are many of you who are really concerned about me.. you all also know tat whenever there is something happen to me... i will nt mention anything to you even if you were to ask... sorry for causing the worries for me... give me some time... i learning to open to people le... still... i wan to thank all of u who have accompanied me through my hard time in my past 18 years of life...

when this person was talking to me... i was already thinking back... and i realise tat i need to grow up, i cannot stay at the same pt forever... i need to be more senitive towards other people feelings.. sorry, tat i may have hurt your feelings in some way..

hmm.. i think tat is about it for today.. i think i kind of taken too much of your time reading my blog... sorry about tat... 1st long blog..

-Finding back my cheerfulness-

][-Van-][ ``12/22/2005 11:20:00 PM``

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