``Friday, December 30, 2005``
new revelation for a new year
in another 2 more hours time.. you realise that you are already in the last day of the year 2005... if you have thought of it.. maybe you will wan to think.. did i get wat i wanted in 2005? can i achieve in 2006?
i was playing my guitar juz nw.. and i found a new focus in life.. the most important of all is to concentrate on my studies now.. spend more time to practice my guitar if i really want myself to improve more..try to get my car license by June 2006.. dun wan to think about other things.. until the time comes for me to think... =)
you will not believe something... today.. i didnt even go out.. for the first time in my 2 weeks break.. then i was watching animal planet and studying at the same time.. haha.. cool... rite?
2005 has been a year full of colours for me... and i learnt alot tat i cant learn from the textbook... and of course... made many new friends.. =) and i really had great classmates around.. although, we may not know each other for very long.. but we will be there for each other when needed..
-[ 1To8 05/06 roX! ]-
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/30/2005 09:22:00 PM``
out for a movie
today.. actually wanted to study the whole day de.. but then end up.. went to watch movie with may, hong ming, lijuan.. haha... went to watch "Narnia"... it is a very good show.. hee hee.. hmm.. honestly, i dun mind watching it again lor.. =) then during the show, the 4 of us were laughing a lot... when we felt tat the story is talking about Jesus.. haha... although it is a long show.. but i enjoyed the movie.. hmm.. then after tat we went to burger king to eat.. then we sit there to chit chat until almost 11 then went home le..
Hey Guys, I will really recommand you to watch the show... really very nice... and touching... at the same time.. it is also funny... hee hee.. =)
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/30/2005 01:36:00 AM``
``Wednesday, December 28, 2005``
i really need a break right nw
everything is coming up... first NAPFA's AGM... which i need to complete everything by 9th jan.. then i still have my exams which are coming soon.. and i haven really done anything yet.. and i need to come out with part of the course book for my own npcc unit... which is due 20th jan.. and i helping weiling in her project which is due 13th jan.. arrgg... there are so many things for me to do.. when am i going to finish them? plus.. i also promise someone tat i will create another blog skin for her... so that one is something i like to do.. and interested in so it is okie.. help.. i going crazy before anyone is going... =(
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/28/2005 08:19:00 PM``
``Tuesday, December 27, 2005``
finally, i got wat i wanted
today... woke up in the morning.. then wanted to study de.. but then somehow nothing gt into my head.. arrgg... exams is coming soon... i really felt stressed but then i juz dont have the mood to study.. i also dunno why.. haix.. i wish someone can knock on my head to wake me up and make me study... haha.. siao le.. *but doubt anyone can do it..haha* so decided to meet kah wee.. he accompanied me go to BBDC to register my driving classes.. haha.. finally after delaying for so long due to my laziness to go and register... yeaH! i gt wat i wanted le.. =) then we went around looking for rental of bicycle shop.. then i managed to call one.. and they gave us a very good rate.. cos we planning something for npcc de.. a overnight cycling trip.. hee hee.. sound cool rite? then after tat i wanted to go orchard to buy gift for my friend's birthday.. then he called me cos he wanted to ask if i wanted to go and watch movie... haha.. then i dun wan so i asked to go with his friends lor.. or go home... then he wanted to accompany me to go far east to buy present.. so went to buy the present with him lor.. then went to eat dinner then come home le..
came home.. my dad had a heart to heart talk with me... my parents think tat i am drifting away from my family le.. i no longer so close to them.. izzit true? when i come back.. i will go to my room to go online.. in the past, at least i will watch tv with them de.. hmm.. wat is wrong with me? hmm.. am i really spending too much time outside that i have necglected my family? All my parents wanted me is to come home early because my place is nt safe... am i able to do it to make them happy? i also dunno.. haix.. dun feel like talking about this topic le la.. =(
my cousin came to my house to stay... haha.. this is as if his second house... almost everyday when i come home sure to see him de... then last nite.. i was listening to my itunes.. then i was listening to the song "i am cow" and my cousin started to sing.. haha.. nw.. he is still singing.. and the only line tat he knows how to sing is " i am cow, hear me moo!" haha..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/27/2005 11:25:00 PM``
after Christmas Day
ytd.. actually i gt a CI course for my own area which will be held in Ngee Ann.. and i am suppose to go de.. but then i didnt go cos my dad dun allow... then after tat.. my boss called up if i am able to work anot... at Turf City de... so in the end i went to work instead lor.. after work.. i went to meet this person.. who made me from Kranji go all the way to ps... haix.. but not bad afterall, he decided to carry my bag for me... i didnt ask him to.. but he wanted so let him carry lor.. haha.. then the whole time.. he was suaning me... hmm... quite a humorous guy i can say.. and lots of lameness... it seems like there are a few people around me are also quite lame.. who? dun wan to tell you =p then this person gave me a rose.. which he made on his own.. haha..
Nice?? Silver in colour de with glitters on it... nt bad la.. rite?
okie.. then we went to KFC to eat.. then sit there chit chat for a while.. then we went home le.. cos i very tired liao.. then he accompany me sit MRT all the way to boon lay then he went home.. all the way.. he was carrying my heavy bag.. with lot of things inside.. haha.. why so heavy? details cannot be said here... hmm.. but then i gt tips of $25 ytd.. hee hee
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/27/2005 12:23:00 PM``
``Monday, December 26, 2005``
stress
exams are getting near.. but then i dont have the mood to study at all... first is christmas... next is new year... how can i concentrate on my studies?? i really need someone to make me study.. haha.. very sad leh... so big le.. still need someone to make me study instead of studying on my own.. haix.. really cannot make it... hahaa.. hmm... but then until nw, no one can really make me sit down and study... haha... so no choice... have to discipline myself le.. =(
i really dun wan to fail any module and repeat them... i wan to clear my poly in 3 yrs and nt delaying it... looking at the piling of the projects will really drive me mad... jia you.. endure.. then i can really take a good break soon... in another about 8 weeks time... looking really forward to 5th march.. can really have to good rest from all the rushing of the projects.. hee hee
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/26/2005 12:26:00 AM``
``Sunday, December 25, 2005``
2005 is coming to an end
As i was on my way home, i thought of this question "wat have i achieved in 2005?" Did i achieved wat i wanted? i cannot think of an answer...
actually, i realised that... since young, i am always been protected by my father's side of family members that i became like a queen in the house... wateva i wan, i will get it... and even when i said something wrong... there will always be someone there to cover me... and i was thinking... do i still want to be this way? how long can they protect me? forever? Most of them dun even scold me at all... leaving it to my way... that causes me to be unhappy when my parents scolds me... but i was glad that there was someone who talk to me and wake me up from watever i am doing... and begin to think... izzit the rite way? i have always been a spoilt child at home... i need to CHANGE... i cannot be in this matter forever.. [God, please guide me n help me to change for the better]
ytd.. my dad's eldest sister(my aunt) talk to me while we were at the dining table drinking wine with the rest of the family... although they have starting to accept chc.. and they are very happy that i turned to christ... but they will still prefer me to be a Catholics... as my 2 aunts are Catholics.. and they asked me to go to novena catholics church.. which my mum, my 3 aunt.. my uncle.. they used to come from that church... i am confused... i like where i am nw.. although every sunday morning.. i am waking up at 6 juz to go for service.. but i am doing it for God...
[ gt this answer after stop typing for 10 mins: follow my heart... dont becos i do not want to disappoint them and follow their wish =) ]
2006 is coming soon in 1 week's time... it will be a brand new beginning for me... i wan to change the lifestyle of my life... i want to make my 2006 a meaningful one which i can really excel in sch, and continue to grow spiritually... and the most important is to be more mature in my thinking and sentitive towards others' feeling... and learn to speak out whether for myself or others when it is the right time...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/25/2005 10:39:00 PM``
Wat is Christmas?
Merry Christmas everyone..
hmm... to me, in the past.. Christmas is juz a day to receive gifts from the adults.. but this year Christmas was different.. cos most of the time, i will spend my christmas in my aunt's place to play with my cousins... i think i spend almost the whole day in church today... and of course, i get to know more about wat Christmas really means and appreciate Christmas...
Jesus was born on this day 2000 years ago... because of Him, we are saved today...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/25/2005 10:33:00 PM``
``Friday, December 23, 2005``
my christmas' eve's eve revelation
this morning... actually wanted to go swimming de.. but then end up staying at home talking to someone on msn.. laming each other.. haha.. then after that went to meet lijuan for lunch at tanjong pagar.. then i went to PS to buy a christmas gift for someone and my sister... hee hee..
next, a friend of mine has requested me to stop playing dota unless she play then i can play.. so i have decided tat i will not play dota except maybe if she is going to play then i been very good, i will accompany her lor.. haha .. dun wan to get addicted to the game once again.. plus exams coming le..
thirdly, today.. i have been reading a book called "Witnessing Without FEAR"... then i read about how a boy's father got saved after praying for his dad and talking to his dad about the Gospel.. hmm.. i felt touched by the story.. I need to be patient with my sister and talk to her and praying for her everyday for the holy spirit to touch her and open her heart to accept Him as her savior.. =)
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/23/2005 05:41:00 PM``
``Thursday, December 22, 2005``
it's time to grow up
a.. this will be my first entry tat it will be quite long i tink.. and definitely be the entry tat i will type out everything on how i feel for the first time.. [ take it as my reflection post.. okie =) ]
today... started by day by going for npcc training... wat i can say is that my squad is no longer the one i used to know.. as maybe after being NCOs, they have changed... i also dunno... i really hope tat they will change...
then i went home to bath then went down to my grandma's place... cos todae eating tang yuan so all muz go there.. after tat.. i went down to city hall to meet lijuan.. to pass her the tang yuan that i promise her and accompany her to her ex-work place to collect something.. then we went to mac to eat.. after tat then i came home le.. cos i need to be home by 10.30pm
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today.. someone has talked alot of senses into my head.. after wat this person has told me.. it really let me think alot on my actions for the past 18 years...
pt 1: i realise tat at times.. i am really going overboard to certain things tat i may have said or did something to hurt the person or not respecting the person who i am talking to... i apologise to all those people around me whom i may have said some hurting words to you... and not giving you the basic respect that i should give to you...
pt 2: i have to realise when it is the time to play and when it is the time to be serious.. as a CI.. i know this logic very clearly but sometimes... i tend to forget to use it in my daily life... again.. i will want to apologise to people around me whom i have added salt and pepper when someone is pushing you to the deep end... i should have stopped them knowing tat it isnt right and nt thinking tat it is fun so i should step in too... i should have thought of the party's feeling...
pt 3: there are many things... knowing tat it is wrong to do it.. but then when someone did it.. i didnt stop them... cos i was afraid... but today.. i learnt that there are many things tat we should let the person know tat it isnt right to do it and nt letting the whole matter past this way.. the person will nt learnt but yet maybe doing it for the second time..
pt 4: close friends around me... i know tat there are many of you who are really concerned about me.. you all also know tat whenever there is something happen to me... i will nt mention anything to you even if you were to ask... sorry for causing the worries for me... give me some time... i learning to open to people le... still... i wan to thank all of u who have accompanied me through my hard time in my past 18 years of life...
when this person was talking to me... i was already thinking back... and i realise tat i need to grow up, i cannot stay at the same pt forever... i need to be more senitive towards other people feelings.. sorry, tat i may have hurt your feelings in some way..
hmm.. i think tat is about it for today.. i think i kind of taken too much of your time reading my blog... sorry about tat... 1st long blog..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/22/2005 11:20:00 PM``
``Wednesday, December 21, 2005``
discipleship - my bible studies lesson today
hmm.. today.. my lesson is about discipleship.. hmm... wat is it all about? if you are a christian then you will know le.. cos there are too much to say.. haha then i had bible quiz for getting started today.. then gt 2 people actually should i say copy or wat la.. wat actually happen? hmm.. maybe you can ask lijuan or gerry.. haha.. cos i told them le.. i lazy to type it out la.. hee hee.. actually.. also dunno wat to say for today..
anyway.. tml can eat tang yuan le.. yeah.. hee hee..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/21/2005 09:55:00 PM``
``Tuesday, December 20, 2005``
i regretted coming home today
i really wonder if my family are also supporting me a not.. or wat? my mother juz said me and hurt me with all the words.. then my sister came into the room and added in... if i know.. i dun wan to come home... stay outside is much better...
pastor once said " in this world, there will not be someone who is going to make you happy but there will always be someone to hurt you"
my heart is really broken nw... thanks to my mother and sister... i dunno how long this wound going to heal but i will nt be as cheerful as before.. dunno.. maybe depends ba.. i really miss my dad.. i think h e is still the best to me..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/20/2005 12:26:00 AM``
``Monday, December 19, 2005``
wat i done wasnt appreciated? why did i do it?
today.. went to sch in the morning.. cos of the miscrosoft thing for ICT.. to teach children how to be safe using the net.. then after tat very tired.. then went to meet lijuan after tat for dinner.. then i went to went dota... haha.. after so long didnt play.. so of course, i will lose la.. then came home.. i argue with my mother... i really dunno what am i on earth for? when i dun do anything, she say de i am useless... then when i did something... she say tat i mop and vaccum the floor is becos my cellgroup came to my place... wat i have done was appreciated at all.. if i know that this is going to happen.. i will nt even touch any part of the house.. wat a stupid, idiot life i have and from a good day... to a terrible, horrible with a mother who has spoilt my whole day juz like tat.. after doing some housework.. i was still been said tat why.. i would rather nt lay a finger on the house.. since no one appreciated what i did when they are nt around..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/19/2005 11:53:00 PM``
``Sunday, December 18, 2005``
candle light service
(Janice, Soo eNg anD mE) -> candle light service
today.. we had candle light service.. cos we are the light of the world.. it was really beautiful when we off all the night.. and everyone lighting up their candles... and singing silent night.. hmm.. this year's christmas, i think it will be very different for me.. although i used to attend chc christmas services... then after service, we went to bedok to eat... after tat.. then the rest went k box.. but i need to come back to jurong for npcc meeting.. and i was really very tired.. i slept throughout the time when i was in the mrt lor.. then we ended our meeting around 10 plus.. wow.. it was really very long cos we started our meeting at 4.30pm.. when i go for the meeting.. i know that there will be alot of commitment that i need to make... but can i really fulfill it? i also dunno..
anyway, haiz.. i woke up late today.. so in the end.. i didnt make fruit juice for my cg.. hmm.. 7 more days to christmas le.. hee hee =)
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/18/2005 11:51:00 PM``
``Saturday, December 17, 2005``
- cell group today -
this week cellgroup was held in my place.. cos seng chong's place is doing some painting.. and my family is nt around so it was held in my place.. haha... hmm.. today, it is about salt and light.. then we off the light in my house and light the candle and we also ate salt... then after tat.. had some fellowship in my place.. hmm... we sang christmas songs today.. cos next week is christmas already.. hee hee.. then after tat... gerry and i went to best coffeeshop.. actually juz wanted to drink something but in the end.. we also ate our dinner.. haha.. then the rest.. went to bugis...
after tat.. i came home.. dunno wat to do.. so i mop the whole house... vaccum the whole house.. then iron all the clothing and placed them into the cupboard.. haha.. for the first time.. i am doing homework with my own will..
i also bought pandan cake for my cellgroup for their breakfast tml.. and i also bought fruits to make fruit juice de.. but then it seems like i cant find my fruit juice maker... so will w221 get to drink the fruit juice?? i also dunno.. this question is still open.. we will only know it tml.. haha..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/17/2005 10:35:00 PM``
over the week
firstly... today.. after my programming lesson.. i went home.. put my things.. then went back to sch for a briefing for my yr 2 modules... then after tat went to tanjong pagar to meet lijuan for dinner..
this whole week... i can say.. i am really very busy.. haha.. cos this week, i need to hand in 1 design web project.. so everynite.. i am sleeping very late juz to do some each day lor.. then this week... also meet a few days cos i wan to pass her the milk fruit... then she can eat it ma.. but then hor.. think she also very busy this week.. haix.. meet her at 6pm.. at her office downstair.. but last min, she need to work OT... so i waited for her like 2 hrs plus at her office downstairs lor.. haha... dun knw why.. i juz have the patient to wait for someone so long.. haha.. =) then my whole family went for holiday except me staying in singapore to take care of myself.... hee hee.. the feeling quite fun leh.. nt a bad idea afterall... then they left on thurs ma.. then i thought tat i will have to buy pack food and eat alone.. but then very funny..
God didnt let me eat my meals alone.. haha.. on thurs, yu hong called to meet me for lunch.. then lijuan meet me for dinner for ytd and today.. haha.. then my friends called to meet me for breakfast.. cool rite? suddenly, everyone meeting me for meal.. haha..
maybe i too cute le.. so they wan to eat with me.. haha.. i think someone going to vomit out le..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/17/2005 12:24:00 AM``
``Thursday, December 15, 2005``
climbing down 24 storey
hmm.. today... after sch.. went to find lijuan at her office cos she wan me to find the milk fruit to her... promise her de.. then she wan it fresh ma.. so i bring down to her office lor.. =( make me carry to sch then to her office.. somemore so heavy... 10 milk fruit you know.. nt one.. hahaa... then suppose to accompany her to go plaza sing to collect her dearest phone de... but then she has to do OT.. so sad.. so in the end.. i went up to her office lor.. at 24 storey... then until 9 then we left... and we dunno if the lift is working anot.. cos after very long, the lift doesnt come up.. so we walk the staircase down to the 1st storey.. so sad rite? but nvm.. only tired but dun really feel anything..
i realise something.. lijuan is also another "workaholic" haha.. she also very "serious" when she is doing work de okie.. haha.. you dont believe then i shall show you the evidence.. haha.. that i took without telling her.. hee hee
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/15/2005 12:00:00 AM``
``Wednesday, December 14, 2005``
jokes juz for you to relax yourself
Before we move on.. sorry tat.. the england(english) here is very terrible so polease(please) dun learn.. haha
Ah Beng bought a Honda VTI recently and drove to Ah Lian's place to show it to her.
So there Ah Beng was bragging the various functions of his new carto his girlfriend.
"This is ah, so fast even the Mata Chia cannot catch ah!""Ha! Really ah!!! Steady lah!" said Ah Lian." Some more hor, this is Automatic one, vely easy to drive!" So Ah Lian said, "Let me try! I wan, I wan!" So Ah Lian took the driver's seat and shifted the gear and floored the accelerator. The next moment, the car sped backwards and crashed into the lamp-post. "Alamak! What u doing? U Siao Char Bo! U see lah! Wah Piang eh!" scre!amed Ah Beng." Solee, solee, pai sah lah! No lah, I tot hor, "R" for racing mah!"
Once upon a time, a group of Ah Bengs stepped into a lounge and wanted the DJ to play the song "Ah Cheng Buey Ro Ti" (In Hokkien means Ah Cheng buysbread). The DJ told them that they only have English songs and told them tore-select another song. The Ah Bengs were very angry and kicked up a big fuss, claiming the DJ was insulting them. The manager had to intervene in order to calm them down. Finally, after long talk with Ah Bengs! manager found out that Ah Bengs actually asking for the song "Unchained Melody" by the Righteous Brothers.
One day, two Ah Lians got into a lift from the 20th storey and want to get down to the ground floor. As they looked at the dial, they could see the number 20 down to number 2. It was then followed by a G. As they not English-educated, they were puzzled and had no idea what does the letter G mean. Suddenly one of them exclaimed excitedly and hit G. When they finally reached the ground floor, the other Ah Lian was so impressed and asked the first Ah Lian,"Wah low!!! , how you know one?" The first Ah Lian replys mugly, "Easy lah.. G for Gero mah..."
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/14/2005 02:39:00 PM``
some quotes that i find meaning
below are some of the quotes tat i have quotes from one of my friend's blog de... who is the person.. to some of you tell you also no use.. you dunno who is she/he... so, dun tell better.. plus i cannot go back my words..cos if i say means i lie... later cannot go heaven..
1) You may get what you want but you will lose what you have.
2) The quality of your life is greatly dependent upon those you called 'FRIEND'.
3) The greatest things in life is To Love & Be Loved in return.
These are my top 3 quotes for the day.. i will write some more when i feel like it.. hee hee..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/14/2005 12:24:00 AM``
``Tuesday, December 13, 2005``
i am back to normal
haha... sometimes really feel tat i am crazy... after a good sleep last nite.. i am back to normal.. at least now.. i will not sit there and stare at my wall and doing nothing and have no feeling at all to all my surrounding.. hee hee.. need to start to learn how not to think too much.. haha.. and juz follow the motto of " dont worry, be happy".. haha.. nw.. later going to cook maggie mee to eat.. so sad... every tuesday eating maggie mee for lunch.. cos my class start at 1pm ma.. so wat to do? nvm.. i shall enjoy.. then i will have 2 weeks of exam break le..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/13/2005 09:31:00 AM``
``Monday, December 12, 2005``
thinking too much
i know wat people around me going to say... but then i cant stop the feeling from coming at times... actually.. i was using the lap top and talking to lijuan on the phone de... then yu hong call in also.. then after a while.. god ma ann called... so pass the phone to mummy... during this period, i thought of alot of things.. but there are juz flashes passed through my mind... then all i feel is tat, i dunno wat i am doing or where i am heading to... the only one tat was on my mind is tat "i am lost" wat do i really wan? then i msg lijuan tat i will not call her back.. cos i know tat even i called her back... i will not be talking.. so i took the time... to stare at my computer and listening to all the songs that i have in my computer and i juz dun wan to do anything except staring at the blank screen..
i will be okie when my brain tells me so... so juz leave me alone.. when i am really okie... that i will be back to my normal self... i hope it was soon... i dun wan to affect my project...
me going crazy le.. *looking for an apartment beside IMH*
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/12/2005 11:08:00 PM``
``Sunday, December 11, 2005``
1st service in expo
let me go deeper into the today's service.. today... had to wake up very early cos my church is no longer in jurong west.. even nw.. i still feel very tired.. and cannot register tat my church moved le.. but then enjoyed today's service alot.. firstly... lijuan made breakfast for the whole cellgroup.. really very nice leh.. hee hee =)
the presense of god today is really very strong.. and the msg that pastor has given today... let me wan to love and trust god even more... although i know that i will need to wake up very early every sunday morning.. it is just a small sacrifice only.. =p god is like our daddy who is always there for us and guiding us the way... he will protect us from the evil one..
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read this from a book "knowing god is only the basic level... but to experience him is another level higher"
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/11/2005 07:27:00 PM``
i went crazy again today
haha.. today.. 1st service at expo.. hmm.. the presense of god was very strong.... and it was also the first time tat we had praise and worship together with so many people for a service.. close up to 10000 people... then after tat went bedok for fellowship at long john silver... =) then about 3 plus.. all dunno where to go so decided to go home.. then shi en wanted to go swimming.. but then i dun have my swimming costume so i didnt go with her lor.. then went home le.. my mum called up.. then ask me to go and find my sister in the salon... then when i reached there..
this is the time i went crazy.. haha.. actually suppose to go and wait for my sis de.. end up.. dunno why i decided to cut my hair... ops.. now my hair is short again.. wanted to keep long but then my hair-stylist ask me to cut short first then let it grow slowly cos my hair at the end also gt a bit spoil le due to too much chlorine(cos by swimming)... haha.. haiz.. now need to re-keep my hair again.. *sobs sobs* did i regret cutting my hair.. arrgg... why did i go crazy today???
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/11/2005 06:57:00 PM``
``Friday, December 09, 2005``
feeling great at home
hmm.. today is really great.. let me this future Doctorate tell you:
today, i am such a good gal.. i woke up at 8am when my class starts at 9am.. then i reach my class at 9.14am.. haha.. =P then after tat.. i joined my group to do the groupwork.. and we finish it quite fast.. and now me the genius have to work on to the individual work le.. hmm.. you know as a student in IT.. if you wan to do programming... beta dont, will get white hair.. but then dunno why.. maybe i am born to be future doctorate with the help of my future professor classmate - kenneth... i managed to complete my work in about 1hr time.. this is really great.. cannot blame la.. 1T08 is juz too great.. with plenty of great students who play need for speed during lectures de.. haha.. ops.. i juz betrayed my class... nvm.. we are all the future Doctorate and Professor of Singapore.. you see.. =)
next let me this daydreaming princess tell you:
after my guitar lesson today, i went home with a cup of maggie mee.. very poor thing you know =( *sobs sobs* princess eating maggie mee... nvm.. it is okie.. only food ma.. then as usual, princess dun do anything de.. so on the lap top and started chatting on msn.. then began to enjoy life... eat my potato chips together with ice-cream.. yeah! then my dad said "there are so many bottles of bird nest at home, you wan you can eat".. of course.. i will eat so i took 1 bottle then i sat in front of my lap top and began to enjoy the bird nest.. dun get jealous hor..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/09/2005 05:54:00 PM``
``Thursday, December 08, 2005``
crazy people will think crazily
sometimes, i would wonder why am i on earth for? my talents are limited.. i am not smart... i cant find a good point of myself tat i am useful.. the only i think that i am good is tat i will definitely put in my 100% if i wan to achieve something... but is tat the only motive i living on earth for? nvm.. can bother about wat i say de... cos there is alot of thinking beyond wat i have written in my blog about myself.. so getting to know me real deep inside may seems hard for some people around me... like i have said.. although i am no longer the one whom i used to be.. but it still need to take me some more time to really open up every single thing in my heart after all the hurts that i gt.. i have open quite a lot to some people around me le...
nvm.. tonite.. i juz have crazy thinking.. maybe if you happen to pass by my blog.. juz pretend you didnt read this post can le.. =) for those who knows me.. should know tat my thinking will run wild at times.. but then it will run back to reality after a long time.. if you leave me alone... but most of the time cant.. cos gt people will come and talk senses into my mind.. then i need to switch back to reality fast =( haha.. nvm.. but i feel loved.. haha.. wat am i talking about? siao le.
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/08/2005 11:14:00 PM``
i broke my toe nail ytd =(
ytd.. i dunno wat i did.. then i ran to the balony of my house and trip... it was really painful lo.. then i thought it was juz normal pain until, i went to the light... then i saw the break on my toe nail and it was bleeding.. so sad rite? haix... dunno how i walk at hm la.. can walk until i injured until like tat.. really very painful leh.. =( mi so poor thing hor..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/08/2005 11:05:00 PM``
``Wednesday, December 07, 2005``
i smelt of kerosane now =(
this morning.. reach jurong sec at about 7am like tat.. cos my sis's cca(girl guides) has a camp today.. then they dunno how to soak the firewood with kerosane.. so went early in the morning to go and help them soak firewood... while, soaking the firewood... i recall many of npcc activities... and i really miss them.. =(
then my dad send me to sch after tat... but then my whole body is full of kerosane smell lor... even until nw, althought i change my shirt le... but then the smell is still very strong... and my lecture room is air con lor.. the smell is making me feel very eeeee.... already.. really feel like going home nw... to bath.. then come back after tat.. haha.. but then nt really possible la..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/07/2005 09:12:00 AM``
``Monday, December 05, 2005``
hyperactive today
last night.. i slept very late lor.. after talking to my friend on the phone until 2 plus ba.. but then i still not sleepy la.. then i carry on use my lap top to find another programme for adding songs into my blog.. haha.. then after tat... i still cant sleep.. so i talk to God.. then went to sleep.. then this morning... when my alarm rang at 7am.. haha.. i dun feel like waking up so i off my alarm and went back to sleep.. haha.. and the next time i woke up was already 7.15am.. haha... sad la.. although i sleep so little but then today, i am feeling very energetic... dunno why... even my classmate also think that i am really hyperactive today.. normally, i will be like a zombie going to school... haha.. but today.. dunno why so alert.. and so active.. haha.. then in class... i dun even feel sleepy at all the whole day.. hmm.. wonder wat medicine i took this morning... haix..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/05/2005 01:30:00 PM``
``Sunday, December 04, 2005``
i'm sorry to some & thankful to some in 2005
from juz nw.. going my way home.. i was thinking of every single thing that have happened during this year... 2005 is coming to an end soon... and there are many happy, sad occasions throughout the year.. there are many people who has walked past my life and left my life.. actually.. i juz felt bad about something... there are many close friends beside me whom i think i had neglected you all due to some reasons & decision making and changing of environment... sorry about it.. =(
during my bs on sat.. it was about thankful.. so we should be thankful to all the people who have written a chapter in my life... friends who accompanied me throughout the hard time when i had some problems... i will nt say wat it is... if you are one of them.. then you will know.. haha.. =p times when i felt helpless and useless.. you all are there for me... hee hee.. changed my life greatly to become a better person.. and making my 2005 life more colourful... =)
definitely.. i will still miss my NDP03 squad... i really miss the times that we train together... and cried together during ndp04 or 05 as we watched the parade.. listening to the marching song and remember the times when it was us who were marching out...
anyway... in life, there will be many people who will walk past your life and stay there or they will walk past and leave after that.. but cherish every single friendship you have...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/04/2005 09:40:00 PM``
feeLiNg HaPpy & sAd
(I will Miss this place.. will you?) haha =p
today was the last service in JW CHC le.. then next week.. we will move to expo.. anyway.. feeling happy cos we are finally moving le.. then we will have a bigger place... and the sad part is i can no longer walk to church anyway.. =( but it is okie.. i need to adapt to the situation.. yeah..
then juz nw before and after service... everyone was taking photos of the whole church... taking photos together... keeping memories of the church of course... cos we will no longer be having our english service in JW CHC anymore... i will definitely going to miss the service there... but i know in life, we cant juz stay there forever... we need to improve ourselves and move on.. hmm.. wonder how is it like there? haha.. curious?
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/04/2005 09:21:00 PM``
``Saturday, December 03, 2005``
wat is she thinking?
i really cannot understand my mother... all the while.. she has been against me going to chc.. then everytime, when someone added salt and pepper into it.. she will come back and question me.. i am not your prisoner... i know wat i am doing already... then always wan to stop me from going to cellgroup.. everything tat she is nt happy with.. she say she wan to speak to my cgl... first she say she will nt against my decision.. is this wat she mean by nt against? All i wan is to make my own decision and nt making every decision for me.. if like tat might as well.. live my life for me.. then tell me wat to do everyday.. and i will nt grow up forever and dependant on her.. i cant rite?
no matter wat... i know i will overcome every single obstacles that is coming in my way...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/03/2005 12:34:00 AM``
thanks, my friend
today, my dad had his operation this morning.. then when i saw him juz nw.. i really felt the pain in my heart especially when i saw him having difficulties in breathing... i really cannot take it anymore.. so i went out use my laptop to do something.. then i need to leave early cos i meeting lijuan to go for last service 1 in jurong west church... on the way to the mrt station.. my eyes are watered.. when i thoughts of my dad.. still bleeding.. as he drinks water... throughout the whole time when i was in the mrt... i was blazing my music.. after i met lijuan.. for the first 5 mins.. i wasnt in my right mood.... so after a while.. as she talks, my mood changes back to the usual.. and not keeping quiet only.. haha.. then told her wat happen anyway.. first person to know everything.. then she also sense something that i am nt in my usual way.... but anyway.. i tried to go back to my usual as far as i could.. then i also dunno when she has send out those sms to my cellgroup to ask them to pray for my dad.. anyway, thanks..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/03/2005 12:12:00 AM``
church is moving
hmm.. our church is moving to expo le.. feeling sad or happy? erm... i think gt some mixed feelings ba.. happy cos our church is growing bigger and we will have more spaces and there are more floor areas.. hee hee.. then the sad part is.. in the future... i no longer can walk home after bible studies.. no longer can walk home after service... or go home to get something juz becos i forgot about it.. nvm.. i will make myself adapt to the new environment.. because that is the place where god has ask us to go. =p
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/03/2005 12:02:00 AM``
``Friday, December 02, 2005``
points that we should Learn
hmm.. my friend lend me a book called failing forward and i have learn alot in it.. let me give 2 points today.. hehe =p
REMEMBER:
There are people who've had it better than you and done worse. There are people who've had it worse thand you and done better. The circumstances really having nothing is do with getthing over your personal history. Past hurts can make you BITTER or BETTER - the CHOICE is YOURS...
so we should live happily and crazily everyday.. rite? ha ha..
Thomas Edison said " Most of life's failure are people who did not realise how close they were to success when they gave up. "
If you can change the way you see failure, you gain the strength to keep running the race. Get a new definition of failure. Regard it as the price you pay for progress.
so let's change our mindset about failure and move ahead.. yeah! =)
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/02/2005 09:01:00 AM``
``Thursday, December 01, 2005``
wat happen at swenson today
juz went.. during my 3 hrs break... shelin, jac and i decided to go orchard to the apple shop to look at things.. then shop around.. then after a while, we decided to go to swenson to eat our lunch cos we really dunno where to go for lunch le.. haha.. then i ordered a vegetarian specgatite.. while they order the pepper chicken.. then when they serve us, they gave me a knife and a fork.. then 3 of us started laughing.. so they expect me to eat with a fork and knife? haha..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``12/01/2005 10:24:00 PM``
