``Sunday, July 31, 2005``
Very happy today... Rev Mike Connell [I WANT TO CHANGE]
I juz came back from church.. I am really happy today. After hearing wat Rev Mike Connell has said today... it really make me know wat is my next step of life. Today, i went for service 5 and service 6.. wow! the power of god filled the entire place.. Mike Connell said "EVERYDAY, WE ARE MAKING CHOICES SO WE HAVE TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER SO WE HAVE TO LET SOMETHING GO SO THAT WE WILL HAVE SOMETHING GOOD HAPPEN TO US" I think it is really true so tat we can get blessed with better things.. In order to move forward, we need to forget the past so tat we can move forward..
During service 6, i went to asked to be pray for.. and when paster prayed for me... i really cried.. all the things that i have kept in my heart for so long are out... i felt so relax after the praying from paster as well as one of the cell leaders... Many others gt prayed too... with all the cries and screaming in the church... nt that did nt stop us from worshiping to god..
Today, i realise something... like wat Mike Connell said during svc 5, we should forgive those who hurt and bless them instead.. then we will nt have unhappiness in us.. I am glad that i went for svc 5 and 6... and thanks god for everything in my life..
after svc... w221 all went to eat.. haha.. fellowship... okie.. going to study le.. [I WANT TO CHANGE]
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``7/31/2005 06:49:00 PM``
``Friday, July 29, 2005``
what is happening to me?
hmm.. juz gt back my results.. great disappointment.. expected to fail CM and i did.. gonna die soon.. if i am going to fail this way, mostly i will need to take 5 modules next sem or i may have to take more than 3 years to complete my studies.. haiz..
secondly, i also dunno wat is going on with me... very moody and very serious problem of mood swing.. haiz.. i wish i can find a place to hide and stay there until i am feeling better... but one thing nw is tat... as long i am doing something, i will nt tink about stupid stuff... so making myself busy is the best way... then i also recently joined ngee ann napfa society... thus making my life busier... but at the same time, i need to cope with my studies.. ~van, jia you to change back~
my prayer are getting better... hee hee.. that is a good thing...
mark 9:20-24 --> believe in Him and He will help you so never give up and be defeated in life.
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``7/29/2005 11:30:00 PM``
``Saturday, July 23, 2005``
common tests are finally over
hmm... it has been days since i have blogging... cos of comm0n test... honestly, i dun know if i can do well in the common test.. but i expect to fail maybe 3 subs... haix... die le la..
ytd... had training... then sec3 had RT cos they dont have RT since the starting of the year... then after tat... as usual, we will go to mac for our unit meeting.. that wat we always do after friday training... then at mac.. ming tat they all wanted to go Jurong Hill but we have nt finish 0ur food.. so they left first... after that, we decided to go hm... to get our things.. then we go and enjoy the nite.... des drove heng's daD pick-up then we went up to JH for a while as ting, huiying and yongcheng was still there... after that... we sent them home and left for our destination... The whole nite was fun... but it was a pity that we forgot to bring camera.. when we are back this morning.. we slept for about 30mins in the car.. then we went to JWSS for the sec3 atc debrief..
Then, went to KFC for some TCS...haha.. then heng, kw,lim and i felt very tired.. so we decided to leave first to go hm to sleep... when i reach hm, i took a bath.. and went asleep on the bed...
lucky jas msg me, if nt i dont think i will be able to wake up in time for CG le... haha.. then today's CG have members from another cg to join us... & guess wat? I saw Bi Liang... haha... such a small world.. after cg then went to haf dinner with w221...
okie.. gt to end le.. nitez...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``7/23/2005 09:13:00 PM``
``Tuesday, July 19, 2005``
haix.. how am i going to survive in poly?
Ytd.. i had mine FSP paper.. arrgg.. expected tat i will nt do well de.. cos i also dun really understand the question.. plus i didnt complete my paper.. that made the matter worst... wat has gone wrong with me??
today.. spend the whole day at hm... to study.. and instead of studying WP which is tml's paper.. i was studying COS which is thursday's paper.. haix.. my brain is gone case le.. haha.. anyway.. at least i did something today...
hmm.. cant write le... need to go and study for WP le.. nitez..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``7/19/2005 11:17:00 PM``
``Saturday, July 16, 2005``
thanks to her..
juz came hm..today.. spend the whole morning studying cos next week common test le.. arrgg.. die.. how? i nt really prepared for the paper.. then in the afternoon.. went for cell group... our cgl get the whole cell grp members to pray for different purposes.. then after tat.. i rush cos i was late for family dinner already...
anyway.. desmond's sis bought some durian pancakes for us... it was really nice... hee hee.. tml will be the Rise and Build day already...
i am really stressed with everything tat is happening in my life.. and i really gt no one to turn to.. then last night when i about to home... i went hm with ting.. then on the way... told her some of my troubles.. haix.. my dear ma.. manage to make me speak the things out of my heart... but need to thank her tat at least after saying them out... i felt better.... gtg le... buai buai.. *love ya*
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``7/16/2005 11:55:00 PM``
``Thursday, July 14, 2005``
where am i heading to??
this few days.. i am living my life without a purpose.. all i did was going to sch and going hm.. common test is juz next week.. but i juz dun have the mood to study.. i dunno where is my heart... arrgg.. it is really sick!!
I really hate my sch time-table nw.. cant come back for NPCC training.. can only come at about 3 plus... then muz rush back.. hope next sem.. my time-table will be better... Wat is my first purpose in life?? NPCC or Sch work?? nw.. i having so many cca.. and i dunno if i can ever cope with all of them... (internal of Ngee Ann: Badminton, NPCC, NATFA Society, external: NPCC, life-saving) then saturday & sunday, keep myself occupied with projects, cell group and service... am really trying to kill myself?? or i am juz keeping myself occupied so tat i can run away from my unhappiness n trouble??
Dun feel like telling anyone.. cos this is my own problem.. dun wan to bother others... anyway.. it isnt my character to tell anyone also... maybe in the past yes.. but not nw.. after so many things have happened...
cant continue already.. or i will never have a end plus.. i betta start on my revision..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``7/14/2005 02:56:00 PM``
``Thursday, July 07, 2005``
Rushing like crazy...
arrgg... coming into my course.. from the start until nw.. i am been rushing through all the projects.. everytime after finishing some topics... we will have projects.. so i have been rushing all the projects as if i am taking my O levels this year again.. haha.. funny compare..
secondly, nowadays.. i am more and more involve into church activities le.. so nw kinda of really busy with moi life.. so maybe i am trying to keep myself busy so tat i dun have think to think of stupid things or any unhappy things.. So i have keep myself occupied by studying, going for church, going out with friends and doing things which i like..
Made some great sisters and brothers in my cell grp..
okie la.. i cannot blog anymore already.. starting my class soon.. FSP( Fundamentals of Programming)..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``7/07/2005 08:47:00 AM``
``Sunday, July 03, 2005``
Juz came back from ATC camp
So tired.. i juz come back from camp... The camp was so fun... haha.. first time going atc as a instructor.. then all the area 17 CIs meet up and have fun together.. plus many of us come from Ngee Ann poly.. haha
Wat i really enjoy is the campfire... all the CIs are really enjoying together and we really went high.. to bring the spirit of the campfire up.. plus this time hong kong npcc have join us in the campfire so it is a new experience for us... we sang our cheer and song in area 17... so it was quite fun with the songs.. i enjoy everything.. i became the medic for the camp.. and i also learn new skills for first aid from HI in Pioneer Sec... (Beng Hwei)
after we break camp in the afternoon.. at first we wanted to go to jp kfc with other area 17 CIs to eat.. then in the end.. Li Juan, Kun Ming and Soo Eng msg me... so in the end.. i decided not to skip service.. so i went for service and miss the gathering.. but i enjoy myself anyway..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``7/03/2005 09:05:00 PM``
