``Monday, January 31, 2005``
[-yippy-]
hmm... woke up at about 10 today.. quite early already la.. haha.. then mt called me to confirm something... then he also told me that ting was sick and was in the sick bay.. haha.. then at that time, i still a bit blur blur de..haha..then about 1 plus left my house to go to sch to meet matt and mt cos going to watch movie ma.. cos we have free tickets so go lor... then went to watch "shall we dance?" hee hee.. the show is very nice.. funny, sad and romantic.. haha.. then after tat matt and mt went hm while i went to giant to look for my mother.. hee hee.. then we bought alot of things and of course not forgetting the goodies for chinese new year.. then i say my friend from D04 de.. :) then went to ah ma house for dinner.. then went back home.. from giant.. to my ah ma house then back hm.. all the way.. chatting with jack using sms.. haha.. then on msn.. chat with joyce and gaya... then crapping with matt and mt about lame things.. ops... okie la.. wan to end here cos lazy to continue le.. haha.. [there are more secrets but cannot say.. cos can only keep in my heart.. sshhh...] lame -_-'''
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/31/2005 10:47:00 PM``
``Saturday, January 29, 2005``
*memories*
hmmm... ytd there was training. i was suppose to meet joyce to go meiji but meiji did not open to went back.. sad la.. then i went to econ with mt to buy panadol for joyce cos she was having headache while mt went there to buy some chocolates..erm.. did nothing much today cos there was a charity drive to help to collect old clothes n newspaper. Then went for dinner with cynthia, chin lim, kaw wee, siew ching, desmond & chuan heng, after tat we had a small meeting... before heading home.. When i reached home.. did some npcc admin stuff then surf the net for a while... talk to mt and matt in msn and at the same time.. i was msging jack...haha.. only gt 2 hands but talk to so many people at the same time.. haha.. haix.. then my mother spoilt it.. wan me to off the computer n go to bed.. instead i went out to watch tv... nottie rite? haha..cos dont feel like sleeping so early after a hot bath...nw, i really wan to go n sleep le.. and at the same time.. listen to 93.3FM...
KEEP THE PAST AS MEMORIES,
ENJOY THE PRESENT,
HOPE FOR BETTER TOMORO.
ARE FRIENDS REALLY FOREVER???
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/29/2005 01:30:00 AM``
``Tuesday, January 25, 2005``
haix.. confused!!
erm.. today is juz like normal any other days.. wat do you expect from a slacker?? haha.. today.. spend my time.. making lanterns for chinese new year...hee hee.. dun see me like tat.. i also will make lantern de hor.. juz tat you all dont know only.. sad la.. haha.. then left the com on the whole day.. chat on msn with joyce for at least half an hour.. crapping each other.. of course.. and chit chat too.. then bust my com's music while i help my mother to do some spring cleaning cos Chinese new year coming le ma... haix.. hate to do it cos it is so tiring.. hmmm... then after tat sit in front of the com again.. chat with JieMin.. hee hee.. so long did not chat with her le.. one of my best buddy tat i had made in NDP03... really miss them... then chat with kok fai too..another NDP03.. trying to persuade him to go for J05.. to join us in the CI thingy.. haha.. siao liao.. then went to buy dinner... after tat.. as I was watching 'The Champion".. did not watch tat time cos i was having my 'O' levels.. i chat with gaya n ming tat... as i chat.. many happy memories of the past appeared in my mind.. really miss those times... but nw? I can only keep them in my heart and remember them forever as there are only memories nw... sobx.. i really miss my sec sch life... with my classmates n friends... haha.. hope to see them soon... but for nw.. i am only worry about my results and nothing else already... dun wan to think too much on the other things.. okie la.. i wan to go and sleep le.. bb...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/25/2005 11:45:00 PM``
``Monday, January 24, 2005``
[-sad & sorry]-
i really dunno if i made a right choice to break up with him... haix.. i juz feel tat we dun really know each other tat well and our conversation are getting lesser day by day.. maybe we should remain as friends.. at least it is better for us.. and i will nt feel so guilty also cos he is staying in the east and i am staying in the west.. and making him coming down all the way.. i dun wish to be tat unreasonable.. :( but nw although i am the one who have raised the break up but then i believe tat both of us are equally sad.. or i should not have accepted him in the first place.. haix.. i really dunno wat am i thinking nw.. but we are still friends so it is not really tat bad afterall.. haix.. i dunno how i am feeling nw too.. -->confused? sad? or wat? erm.. okie.. i need to go and be alone by myself for a while.. buai~
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/24/2005 10:14:00 PM``
*orchard..yeah!!*
hee hee.. today.. went orchard with my mother and god ma.. to buy clothes.. for chinese new year.. haha.. bought quite alot of clothes this year.. and think my cousins will be surprise by my dressing this year.. haha..thanks to my god-ma.. choosing those clothes to make me look more lady-like and not tat tom-boy..whahaha.. cos she say 18 le.. so cannot keep wearing jeans only.. but also wear more skirt... diao.. i even bought ear-rings.. OH NO!! i really dunno how i will look like during chinese new year this year.. with my PINK? blouse... of all colours.. and promise my cousins to wear dress on the first day of chinese new year... argggg... okie lahz... i gtg le.. too tired le...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/24/2005 04:40:00 PM``
``Saturday, January 22, 2005``
[-turtle house-]
erm.. today had to stay at home cos i think some people are coming in put up our new curtains.. and my dad also gt the carpenter to come to my place cos he wan to change some of the cupboard's door and make a built-in cupboard in my living room... also dunno for wat...haha.. then after tat went to see sofa.. cos dad say the sofa already 10-11 years le.. wan to change.. haha.. erm.. the curtains.. quite nice.. but he still thinking which one to buy cos he saw a few which he like de.. haha.. dunno if can get new sofa before chinese new year a not...hee hee.. then later we went to turtle house.. erm.. i know i am a bit cruel... [sorry to all turtle lovers].. but the turtle soup was really nice... oppx.. but it is actually a seafood house too.. so dun mistaken.. tat it only sells turtle.. okie.. i wan to go and watch tv le.. bye bye... hee hee..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/22/2005 11:46:00 PM``
^boring day^
haix.. i woke up at 11 ytd.. haha.. very late rite? like pig like tat.. haha.. too tired le.. so in the end.. did not take my breakfast.. then help out with my mother to do some spring cleaning cos chinese new year will be coming soon.. in about 2-3 weeks time.. quite excited cos got a lot of good food to eat.. but then it also means tat... i going to gain more weight.. haix.. cannot.. this year need to control le.. try not to eat as much as possible... after tat.. we went to the airport to fetch my father cos he juz came back from his business trip.. hee hee :) then we went for dinner at the international seafood centre.. yummy.. had black pepper crabs, lobster sashimi.. and tried the sweet shells.. dunno wat is tat.. like a snail like tat de.. very nice.. hee hee.. and other food too.. but it is also very expensive.. haix :( then went home.. watch tv.. from america idol at 10-11pm.. then continued to watch pretty woman..from 11-1 plus.. haha.. then me n my sis still continue to watch dunno wat show until 2 plus before we went to bed.. haha.. okie.. going to stop here le.. buai~ muackx
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/22/2005 09:38:00 AM``
``Saturday, January 15, 2005``
TrainIng TimE
erm.. ytd when i reach home.. i was too tired to come and write my blog le.. haha.. ytd was friday so we had npcc training of course.. then a new HO was posted to our sch.. i also knew my temporary posting tat i will be in charge of sec 3 with desmond.. haha.. not bad rite?? now.. i can only hope that i wil be posted back to jurong sec.. if not also nvm la.. haix.. after training.. i went to kfc with the sec 4 for dinner.. hee hee.. cos promise matt that i will join them.. haha.. after tat.. when we leave kfc... so happen tat we saw des they all again.. so took the same bus (240)... later ting need to go somewhere... then i decided to go with des they all to sim lim.. haha.. but by the time we reached there.. it is already closed.. :( then we went to harbourfront to the mac to have a drink when we saw jing bao..wif his friends.. hee hee.. i was supposed to reach home before 10.20pm but end up i reach home at 10.45 so end up gt lecture by my parents..haha.. but then it is over already.. so i also dun really care that much.. juz tat got grounded for 1 day.. which is today.. okie.. need to end already cos i will be going out with my family le.. :Pp buai~
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/15/2005 05:03:00 PM``
``Wednesday, January 12, 2005``
12/01/2005
todae... wake up only 10 plus.. haha.. actually dun wish to wake up de.. but i have to choice... then watch vcd until about 2 plus then went to take a bath before i went out.. went out with matt and ming tat... stay in jurong east doing nothing... haha.. abit lame lahz.. then we bought a cake and went over to superbowl there... called ting, sue, gaya and huiying also.. so we had some fun there together including of us making fun of ming tat and dear..hee hee but not forgetting of ming tat cutting his birthday cake and gt some pink hair spray..haha.. and it really reminds me of the good old times... when in the past, we used to go out together after school..no matter where we go, as long as we are together, we will have fun & laughter... but things are no longer the same....haix.. really miss those times.. then after that.. we went home.. when i went home, argue with my mother with some small little things.. end up the whole day... the mood is been spoiled..sianz... juz wonder when she will really juz let me do wat i wan.. growing up already yet.. haf to report everything to her.. i am already very tired... things are happening around me..[truth really hurts] and when i reach hm.. still haf no peace.. okie lahz.. going to stop here le.. but i think i will juz have to endure the life ba.. good nite & sweet dreamz..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/12/2005 09:57:00 PM``
``Saturday, January 08, 2005``
disappointed
haix... this morning went back to jss for the cca display thing.. and i did the presentation but i dun think we will many people joining as there are not much people coming to take a look at our booth.. then germaine mdm came to see and gave some comments how to improve too... after tat i know about some truth on somethings.. which i so called would not expect to have this type of responds but yet i get it... i really dunno wat is going on or have really went too far? i dunno.. these things are really hurting me.. disappointed in anything and everything nw.. have i done the right choice?? haix... anyway.. after that.. i went for my unit meeting in jurong point swensens.. then we discuss on alot of things.. but too bad.. cannot say it here.. cos there are too much already.. hee hee..plus we had some jokes and fun too.. after that.. i went home and my fAmily went out for dinner.. okies la.. i think that all for today..
hurt, disappointed?? i think tat there is no words that can discribe how i am feeling nw.. i only wish tat this wound would be able to heal or i really dunno wat is going to happen...
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/08/2005 10:06:00 PM``
``Wednesday, January 05, 2005``
Am i a failure??
Honestly.. i really dunno where is the old me?? it really seems like after i went for the CI course.. i change to be until i myself also dun believe... I have been ordering people to do things instead of asking which i always did in the past.. this is wat i scared most and it seems like coming true as soon... many people will start to hate me le.. i really dunno wat to do.. or maybe i should not even go back for training first until i am back to my old self.. this is the reason why at the time, i did not wan to come back as a WCI... if i wish tat the old me be back then i will not have any type of this things.. and be upset or miserable about anything or anyone... especially those who are close to me... maybe i should not bother about np for a while to let myself find where am i first... cos i do not wan to hurt anyone else or make another person unhappy or watever.. it is really tiring and mentally torturing to do things which are not my wish but i still have to do it because i am holding tat rank!
My heart is crying... and i really dunno who i am really am nw..
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/05/2005 11:17:00 PM``
TirEd
finally.. i have the time to write my blog again.. hee hee.. haix.. i am very busy for the past few days because we are doing the innova campfire so by the time, we come home... i am already too tired to think.. today.. in the morning.. went to JSS for breakfast cos need to cut down on fastfood le.. then we headed to Innova... waited for kah wee for quite long cos he woke up late so in the end we have to leave without him and ask him to go there on his own as chuan heng reach liao.. haha.. so early.. after tat.. in the afternoon, i went back to JSS first.. then later see how they march as well as to pick out the drill team for this sat cca display.. hee hee.. later in the late afternoon, all came back le.. we had the normal training and all that but then did not really do much cos we did not have enough time le.. after training.. we went for dinner at sheng siong... hee hee.. on the way back.. dear msg me to tell me that they are at blk 156 there.. so me n desmond went there actu to disturb them but in the end also donated.. haha.. then after tat.. we went home le.. okie lahz..
i will end here today... :P
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``1/05/2005 09:48:00 PM``
