``Wednesday, November 10, 2004``
SiAnZ...
Haiz..today can say quite a boring day! In the morning, lucky no one called up so i was alnoe at home to watch tv and study accounts at the same time.. hee hee.. it was so fun.. after tat, i thought that i was going to be late to meet li xian to help her make something on her hp but end up when i was about to board the bus, i realise that i did not on my phone. when i on my phone, i receive a msg from her tat her phone is ok le so dun need to meet le.. so i went down to ah ma's place. There, i spend time talking to ming tat on the phone, and go to internet to check up on some stuffs... we chat on alot of time, including bbg stuff and how they treated him.. haix.. sux.. will all the stupid things coming along. At night.. when i went home. hopefully. my family can make me happy and show me support as i was feeling really down these dew days but instead my mother make me feel worse... I was actually happily preparing to study and start my revision for to night.. but then end up cannot cos i have lost my mood and i have a headache now... :( i want to put my clothes the way i like n she is not happy with that.. btw.. when on earth she is happy with me de?? She always think tat i am useless since the day i went to normal! To her, think only gt my sis.. watever thing is always i do even if i am studying and will not be my sis... she would always say.. by doing this, takes you alot of your time izzit? Juz now she push my head and i was really angry n ask her not 2 touch my clothes so she threw them on the floor.. i was really pissed off so i take and threw on the floor until i happy then pick up to keep.. that y nowadays, i would rather stay in my room to do my things or stay in the computer room the whole day... then dun need to argue with her or get scolding.. although i know tat i was really too much just now.. but then why cant she juz leave me alone espec. when i am going to be 18 nex year?? ok.. i will end here.. buAi~ see you tml... :)
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``11/10/2004 09:43:00 PM``
``Tuesday, November 09, 2004``
Ha|z... wat can i say???
I had my 'O' levels chemistry today.. haix.. think i wil not do well for this paper.. it seems tat firstly, my heart is not there and secondly, i really dunno how to do the questions... after my paper.. went home.. then went to study.. although i plan to study as much as possible but then i also dunno wat is going on with me.. it seems like whenever i look at the books.. my mind will start to think of bbg and this is not getting me anywhere... and nw i seems to lose interest in almost everything even my temper and smiles... they have really hurt me alot.. but the memories that they left in me will stay in my heart forever.. :P nw the only time which i am happy is when i am with Mt, dear, joyce.. really enjoyed the time when we played together and will not get angry with each other for very long.. haha.. think the longest is when Mt and Joyce argue then me, dear and joyce went NTUC to walk then wait for the library to open... then we ok le.. haha.. and the time when me and mt went over dear's place.. haha.. that time, i really enjoyed myself a lot.. ok lahz.. think i will end here or i dunno when then i will end.. hee hee.. live each day with happiness although i feel tat my life is sux at the moment.
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``11/09/2004 08:16:00 PM``
``Monday, November 08, 2004``
| aM bAcK tO mY UsUa| sELF..HaHa
eRm.. did not have time to write on sat and sun cos on saturday, went to orchard to look for my mother then ytd, we went out to celebrate my mother's birthday..hee hee. Actually, i realise that there are many things in this world that we cannot predicate so why make ourselves so sad.. juz like each day with happiness can le..hee hee.. anyway, the 'O' level maths paper was quite okay.. at least it is much easier than my prelim and i am really happy.. cos my tortoure days are ending soon.. yup! Haix.. actually i wanted to write alot but i juz cant remember wat i intended to write.. haha..ok lahz.. i will end here but if i can remember then i will continue again.. bye!
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``11/08/2004 01:53:00 PM``
``Friday, November 05, 2004``
*sAd & HuRt* HeArt BrEaK|nG
Haix.. Actually, i just started this blogger thing... at first,really did not want to start an account cos i find that why people wan to write feeling out online to let people see them but I realise that sometimes when they do this is because they have no choice... there are times when we are feeling down but yet cant we are not able to tell themhow we feel about it cos we dunno how to say and dun wan to affect them at all.This is how i am feeling now.. i dun think anyone willknow cos i am not showing anything out.. It seems tat my gang is spilting soon... we are to longer going out together and it seems that there is a gap between us... cos someone is who i know actually ask them not to tell me anything which i find it very funny.. i really dunno wat is going on... They brought many happy memories for me andnow it seems that all these memories will be gone forever but I willkeep everything in my heart...Really enjoy the time when i am with them... happy and sad memories! My heart really hurts...but I will put everything in my heart..thanks 4 all the wonderful memories u all haf given me...*bbg*
-Finding back my cheerfulness-
][-Van-][ ``11/05/2004 06:41:00 PM``
